My Greatest Struggle

Sometimes when I sit alone in my room with nothing to do and nothing to watch on T.V (like right now)........I start thinking about things. I start thinking about where my life is headed?, what kind of career I should pursue?, how to improve myself?, etc. Although I hate asking myself these questions because it gives me quite a headache, it is good for me that I do because then I can prepare myself with the answers I give to myself. By that I mean I can reflect on what I want and what I am interested in. This pops another question in too my mind (which I hate but can't stop) and that is how do I know what I want? How do I know that what I want right now is what I will want 10 or 20 years from now? Back in 5th grade I loved collecting pokemon cards and spent perhaps hundreds of dollars on them and after a couple of years have passed, I hated pokemon and threw away my entire collection. It's funny because my father always told me that eventually I'll lose interest in them but he still gave me money to buy them anyway. Although I may not know right now what will interest me throughout my life, I am still exploring and introducing myself to new ideas which may change my perspective someday and help me find new interests in life. Maybe one day I'll look back at this and thank my mind for asking me all of those questions. Perhaps you can relate to, but to me I consider this to be one of my greatest struggles.